Today will be the first day of many to come to let it all loose. When i first got tumbler i decided that i would use it as a way to express myself and let anything out. Its been a  while since i first got it, but I think that I am finally ready to share. No names or places will be mentioned. For those of you that could care less then maybe you should have picked a different site, after this is a blog and I am allowed to talk about anything I`d like. 

Today was just as hard as any other, I still cant believe your gone. I hate knowing what once was and that it is now gone. I hate the fact that your the only one I was capable of talking too. I see you every where and feel the need to be with you but fro what? Its been a long time and I should be able to mange by now but truth is Im not sure how and when I will be able too. Everything reminds me of you. 

I miss being able to go out every weekend with the people I grew up with. Ive never really minded moving so much so often but all these recent moves and changes coming at once are driving me crazy.  Packing is something that most people dread because they feel like they`r putting their lives in boxes I for one have learned to take moves as fresh start with new opportunities, but either way isint that what parents tell you when you move far from your friends? I know i should be  grateful for at least having a house but itd be allot better if the moving wasn’t because of all the problems in this family financially and emotionally. 

I find something to look forward to everyday even if its the smallest thing, theres no reason to give up on life when theres always hope. 

Once in a Capricorns heart always in a Capricorns heart